Monday, October 27, 2008
How painful it must be for all the young girls who face the same situation. I can't help but feel it has to affect their self esteem. I only hope that my husband being in our lives for so long has helped with that. I hope she notices him kissing me and telling me how beautiful I am. I hope it will help her to know how a man is really supposed to treat a woman. I hope that detours her from bad decisions later in life. I hope she knows she is worthy of all good things.
Then there is the teenager who emails me. She is cutting herself and the last time she did, it took a long time to stop bleeding. The kids at her school tell her she should just kill herself. I try my hardest to convince her to get help. I have sent links to websites and hot line numbers for her. But, there is only so much I can do. So I pray for her. Would you pray for her too? She says she is always alone and that her parents could care less about her. I hope she will be okay. My heart aches for her. I hope she knows she is worthy of all good things.
Any young girl out there reading this...please know you are not alone. EVER. God is beside you whispering in your ear, "I love you."
If you need to talk, email me at firstname.lastname@example.org You can rise above the past. Trust me- because I know.
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
As my daughter gets older I am starting to believe the saying "it takes a village to raise a child." I can't help but think if it was my girl doing these things, someone better tell me before it's too late. But, I don't even know these people so what am I supposed to do?
She also tells me about a goth chic that she sits next to in one of her classes. She cuts herself. She says it's how she controls her anger. My daughter, Dallas for those of you who don't know her name, told this girl she was praying for her. The girl confided in Dallas and said she does believe in God but can't stop cutting herself.
Who knew they would have to grow up at such a young age?
Dallas and her best friend have decided not to be friends with the girl who's doing crazy things with her boyfriend. Thank you God, what a grown up decision they've made.
I have told Dallas I don't want her hanging out with the goth chic who is cutting herself but to keep letting her know that she is praying for her.
I am scared because I know there is a very fine line here. A line between doing what is right and going down a path that is hard to return from.
I am scared because there isn't much I can do to stop the world from crashing in on her.
I'm scared because I've buried my head in the sand long enough.
These kids are dealing with things we never dreamed of at this age.
I think of you Dallas, every time I hear this song. I am so proud of you. And Dallas, I love you very much and I am so thankful that you talk with me. I am always here and I will never stop praying for you!
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
You are in your car driving home. Thoughts wander to the game you
want to see or meal you want to eat, when suddenly a sound unlike any
you've ever heard fills the air. The sound is high above you. A trumpet? A
choir? A choir of trumpets? You don't know, but you want to know..
So you pull over, get out of your car, and look up. As you do, you see
you aren't the only curious one. The roadside has become a parking
lot. Car doors are open, and people are staring at the sky. Shoppers are racing out of the grocery store.
The Little League baseball game across the street has come to a halt.
Players and parents are searching the clouds. And what they see, and
what you see, has never before been seen.
As if the sky were a curtain, the drapes of the atmosphere part. A
brilliant light spills onto the earth. There are no shadows. None.
From every hue ever seen and a million more never seen. Riding on
the flow is an endless fleet of angels. They pass through the curtains one
myriad at a time, until they occupy every square inch of the sky.
North. South. East. West.
Thousands of silvery wings rise and fall in unison, and over the
sound of the trumpets, you can hear the cherubim and seraphim chanting,
Holy,holy, holy.. The final flank of angels is followed by twenty-four
silver-bearded elders and a multitude of souls who join the angels in
Presently the movement stops and the trumpets are silent, leaving
only the triumphant triplet: Holy, holy, holy. Between each word is a
pause. With each word, a profound reverence. You hear your voice join in the
chorus. You don't know why you say the words, but you know you
Suddenly, the heavens are quiet. All is quiet. The
angels turn, you turn, the entire world turns and there He is. Jesus.
Through waves of light you see the silhouetted figure of Christ
the King. He is atop a great stallion, and the stallion is atop a
billowing cloud. He opens his mouth, and you are surrounded by his declaration:
I am the Alpha and the Omega.
The angels bow their heads.. The elders remove their crowns. And
before you is a Figure so consuming that you know, instantly you know:
Nothing else matters. Forget stock markets and school reports. Sales
meetings and football games. Nothing is newsworthy.. All that
mattered, matters no more.... for Christ has come.
This morning when the Lord opened a window to Heaven, he saw me,
and he asked: My child, what is your greatest wish for today?
Thursday, August 14, 2008
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Friday, August 8, 2008
So young with so much life left... yet he chose the nails!
What an impact he had on humanity in his 33 short years... yet he still lives on today!
What a mark he left on earth in 33 years!
Who, being in very nature God,
did not consider equality with God something to be grasped,
but made himself nothing,
taking the very nature of a servant,
being made in human likeness.
And being found in appearance as a man,
he humbled himself
and became obedient to death-
even death on a cross!
Therefore God exalted him to the highest place
and gave him the name that is above every name,
that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow,
in heaven and on earth and under the earth,
and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord,
to the glory of God the Father.
All of that in just 33 years!
Monday, July 28, 2008
I am rigid. The military sargeant type. I always want things in their place and I want my kids to mind. I don't want them to ask me questions they already know the answer to, because why waste time talking about it if you already know the answer? I like peace and quiet and order. How's that for my mom abilities? Pretty frightening, right?
We recently returned from vacation, which I hope to post some pics of soon. We had so much fun. The military mom was replaced by a mom who wanted to have fun with her kids. No worries just plain old fashioned fun!
Why can't I be like that at home? Why do I jump down my kids' throats for asking a simple question?
All I want is to play out in the rain with the kids and not care that there will be a puddle of water on the floor when we come in.
All I want is to be able to let the kids play in the house with friends and not care that the toys are everywhere. I act as if the house will never get back to its original state, even though I know it will.
All I want is to take the time to enjoy my kids while I can. But WHY is that so hard for me?
Why am I as rigid as a board?
Thank you, Lord for my healthy kids. Help me to enjoy them before it's too late! Help me to lose control. I'm tired of the anxious thoughts that roam in my head. Help me to let go. In Jesus' name, and all according to your will, Amen
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
Over millions of years and about 75 miles below the Earth’s surface, carbon under tremendous pressure transforms into a diamond. Now, while we don’t have millions of years to live here on Earth, God takes the time we do have to transform us into something beautiful.
Monday, June 30, 2008
As I was driving down the interstate the other day my mind wandered to a time long ago.
It was a place with no road signs, no tall towers, and no pavement. It was just the Earth as God had created it in the beginning. My thoughts were caught up in a simpler time (maybe...no washing machines!) :)
I was surrounded by the beauty of God's creation. I mean, even now, I see how beautiful it all is, but for a moment there was nothing to distract away from that magnificence.
It got me to thinking of Job 38. It's one of my favorite places in the Bible. I'm amazed at how many times I end up in this same chapter.
I am just a speck of sand here on Earth yet he knows my name. He is in control of my life even when I think I'm so big I can handle it myself. This scripture puts me in my place so to speak.
I have huge significance in this world yet there is someone who is more significant. There is someone who is in control...and it's not me.
I am finding myself praying more to my Father in heaven than I have for a long time. I find myself not spending as much time in his word but in conversation with him. I used to get down on myself when I wouldn't spend that time in the Bible gobbling up all he has to say to me. In this time I am simply listening more for his voice prompting me to talk with him.
If I had the patience :) I would type out all of Job 38 for you. But, I urge all of you to take a few minutes today and let God show you who is REALLY in control of your life!
PRAY WITHOUT CEASING!! GOD CAN CHANGE THINGS IF IT"S MEANT TO BE!!
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
Please know that I'm still here reading yours and keeping in touch that way. I'm feeling led to just be an encourager during this time instead of writing. I will post my devotions when they come out on the website and also anything I might feel God is leading me to share, so please do check back every once in awhile!
I'll be around leaving comments!
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
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Friday, June 6, 2008
I love you more than you know. I pray for you...
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Wednesday, June 4, 2008
According to dictionary.com this means- inactive.
I have to confess. I have not been motivated to do much lately. I attend church on Sunday mornings but that's as far as it goes. I've never joined the church or any Sunday school class. I still, after a year, know no one at the church. I often wonder why that is. Why don't I reach out? Why do I always wait for someone to come to me?
I think for me the question is always, "Are we going to be moving again soon?" It is so hard to leave behind friends you've made from one place to the next. As if it's easier to remain alone so there's nothing to leave behind again. I think it's just time to not worry about it anymore. What will be will be...it's time to move on!
I'm not sure what finally got the ball rolling but we are attending a " get to know the church if you want to join meeting" this Sunday. I am excited and can't wait to get involved.
Thanks for listening to me ramble about this. I am just so glad that we are finally doing something instead of living in the past.
Friday, May 30, 2008
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him. So in everything, do to others what you would have them do to you. Matthew 7:11-12
So here is the story behind the video:
A son asked his father, 'Dad, will you take part in a marathon with me?' The father who, despite having a heart condition, says 'Yes'. They went on to complete the marathon together.Father and son went on to join other marathons, the father always saying 'Yes' to his son's request of going through the race together. One day, the son asked his father, 'Dad, let's join the Ironman together.'
To which, his father said 'Yes' to. For those who didn't know, Ironman is the toughest triathlon ever. The race encompasses three endurance events of a 2.4 mile(3.86 kilometer) ocean swim, followed by a 112 mile (180.2kilometer) bike ride, and ending with a 26.2 mile (42.195kilometer) marathon along the coast of the Big Island .
Father and son went on to complete the race together.
How much more would our Father in heaven give us if we would only ask??!!
Thursday, May 22, 2008
Ya'll, this was not found out until we walked back in the door. I guess when they heard the garage door open "the boys" decided to get up and see where my baby was. He greeted us all at the steps looking like this.
All I could do was look at my husband and say... nice. Then, I venture off to find what he had gotten into. Fingernail polish! On his eyes!! He must have watched me put eyeshadow on before and even his eyelashes were pink. He did try doing his toenails too but I couldn't get a shot that wasn't real blurry, so you only get his face painting.
Funny thing is he found this polish in a different place than where he saw me put mine away.
The good Lord was looking out for my hubby though...there wasn't a speck of fingernail polish anywhere else but on my baby. Oh yes ya'll, the sweet Lord was DEFINITELY looking out for my hubby!!! :)
Monday, May 19, 2008
My heart is so heavy.
I see his face. Young. Cheerful. Happy. I have no idea the road life has taken him down all these years. I wonder, how alone do you have to feel to do something like that? As tears fall down my cheeks I think, " What if?"... If I had only known, but there was no way for me to know.
This is not the first time someone I have known has chosen this road.
I am so scared of what lies ahead for my children. What choices will they make when encountered by the things of this world.
The world has gone crazy. Drugs, alcohol, murder, suicide. Can life really get that bad?
I just keep seeing his face. I wish I could reach out and help him, but he's gone. Forever.
What did he say to himself before he did something so final? My heart aches for how alone he must have felt. Caught up in a world that offers nothing.
My dear Christian friends, the time to speak is now. Don't hide the hope inside any longer. We have to share it with the world. There may never be another chance.
We walk passed them on the street. It's that single mom struggling to make it. They sit next to us in church. I'm urging all of us to not sit idle...let's go find them. There may never be another chance.
If anyone out there is as alone as he was and you are reading this, I want you to know there is hope and it lies in the name of Jesus. He will always be there to help you. If you want to know how to find that hope, email me at email@example.com and I will listen. I will share with you the everlasting love of Jesus.
Oh, God please hear me. There are so many lonely people who are going to do the same thing. God please help me find them so I can share your love with them. So I can tell them they are never alone. That you will be right by their side if they would only accept you. God help them. Forgive them for they no not what they do. In Jesus' name I pray, Amen.
Friday, May 16, 2008
I was at a Christian women's conference in 1999. My mother-in-law, Cheryl, had invited me to go. She wasn't my mother-in-law at the time but I am now blessed to be able to call her that.
I sat at the conference all day listening to people's testimonies. I cried a lot listening to all their stories, which weren't so different than mine. At the end of the conference they had a time for you to come forward if you wanted to ask Jesus into your heart. I wasn't sure what had came over me, but there I was walking down the LONG isle to the front. I wanted to ask Jesus into my heart. I wanted forgiveness for all my sins. I wanted peace in my heart. I know now that it was the Holy Spirit that walked me down the isle because I am certain it was not me moving my legs. Thank you God! Oh, how I needed your help!
After the conference was over we headed back to Cheryl's house. I had planned on leaving from there right away to make the hour long drive to my house. I had plans with a couple of friends that night. We were going to be drinking and most likely, partaking in some sort of illegal drug. I was never an addict, but if God had not intervened when he did, I very well could have been.
But, what I hadn't planned on was asking Jesus into my heart earlier that day. I knew there was no way I could go home that night- so I asked Gary and Cheryl if I could stay at their house for the night. Of course, they said yes.
I didn't get much sleep that night. I was awake crying in the room. It was just me and God. I felt in my heart that I needed to confess every sin I could remember ever committing. I hungered for that forgiveness. I wanted peace in my heart.
The next morning I felt so good- though my eyes were almost swollen shut from all the tears. I ate breakfast and headed home. I went straight to my friends' house. The ones I was supposed to go partying with the night before. I sat on their front porch with them and told them that I had gotten saved last night. They looked at me like I was crazy. They said, " What does that mean?" I shared that I had asked Jesus into my heart as Lord and Savior of my life and that he had died on the cross as payment for all the things I had done wrong and that I was forgiven for all of it. They still thought I was crazy. They didn't understand what I was saying because they didn't have Jesus living in their hearts.
I went home and fell on the couch in despair. My friends thought I was crazy. I felt dejected and my joy for the Lord felt far away, as if it had left as quickly as it came. I remember sitting there on the couch with my arms folded and my head hung. I felt so alone.
Then, I tilted my head up and there on the wall was the shadow of a cross that was filtering in from a nearby window. I knew God had placed it there at that exact moment. My heart welled up with love for my God once again and my joy was brought back. In that very moment I knew that My God would never leave me. My God would never forsake me. He had seen what I had shared with my friends and wanted me to know that he was there, regardless of what they thought of me.
God can give you this same peace. All you have to do is accept his grace and love. Just believe in your heart that he died on the cross so that your sins would be remembered no more, and on the third day he rose from the grave and now sits at the right hand of the Father in heaven. He has risen to prepare a place for you and if he has risen to prepare a place for you then He will come back so that you may be where He is. If you feel Him tugging at your heart-- then don't waste another second. Just take that first step, believe in your heart and let the Lord do the rest.
Here is a song I found the other day. It speaks of a message very dear to my heart.
If you get nothing else from this-please get this...God can change people. I can testify to it. No matter the past- PEOPLE CAN CHANGE! Don't judge - just pray.
If there's someone out there ready to ask Jesus into their heart but you don't know how or what to do, email me at firstname.lastname@example.org and I will do my best to help you. If there is some one who needs prayer, if there is someone who needs to talk- I am here and more willing than you know.
PEOPLE CAN CHANGE!!!!!
Go see Amy for more beautiful songs, or also here for more stories of signs, miracles, and wonders!
Monday, May 12, 2008
We managed to escape the weekend with only 2 scrapped elbows, a nice concrete burn along the spine, and a seriously bruised hip! But, no emergency room visits. This is truly amazing my friends, considering grown men and 1 woman decided to ride children's scooters( with a weight limit that was far exceeded) down a hill at high rates of speed.
Um, HELLO- DANGER! DANGER!
Thank you, Lord for looking out for us. It was truly a great weekend and a wonderful Mother's Day!
Thursday, May 8, 2008
It was Justin's turn to take Ralphie, our dog, out for a walk. He came back in overjoyed, saying "He's a real dog now!!"
" What do you mean?" asked Dallas, our daughter. Justin replied, " He hiked his leg for the first time when he went to the bathroom!"
My son had some how associated the hiking of a leg to becoming a "real dog." I started thinking about how Ralphie's actions had proven to my son that he is what he is--a dog. What Ralphie had done is what dogs are "supposed to do."
Makes you think about how people are watching us as Christians. Do our actions tell them who or what we are? Are we acting like we are Christians? Are we showing others that we walk the walk and not just talk the talk?
Funny what can bring God to mind...
Monday, May 5, 2008
Some say that might be a good thing. I say it took away time from my kids. It also didn't allow my kids to be kids because I couldn't let their toys lie around for too long.
I thought this was how I was supposed to run my house, that if I was a stay at home mom then my house had to be pristine. Over the last couple of years God had laid it on my heart that I wasn't letting my kids be kids. I was always hollering to pick this up or don't do that.
Now, you will find crumbs under my kitchen table- if the dog hasn't been under there to lap them up. Yes, I did just say dog. I have NEVER been a pet person- the smell, the hair! But, we got one for the kids this past Christmas. And that, has taken some time to get used to. For me it's like standing at the open door of the airplane at 15,000 feet waiting for someone to push you out the door. One of those things you have to force yourself to do.
But again, God has been faithful in getting me through this one too. He is my parachute. When I feel like taking the dog to the pound(which is at least once a day), I hear him say, "He won't be a puppy forever." That and the fact that I just got this dog's hair buzzed to 1/4 of an inch is helping me a great deal!
In the meantime, I pray that my house doesn't smell like a dog and that no one finds a hair in their food!
Here's Ralphie- before and after the buzz!!
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Here is a 20 minute clip of their story. It's worth your time...
A story so heart wrenching, yet so full of faith. A woman able to write her journey of pain and hope. A mother's words...so powerful...so strong.
She needs our prayers. Visit Angie's blog to read more of their story.
Monday, April 28, 2008
It's a decision that I have tried "reasoning" over for much too long. I have reasons to do it-very valid ones I might add. Then, I also have very valid reasons not to do it.
I have reasoned myself into total confusion over the situation. My mind has been so on the go over this that I have rarely asked God what it is he'd have us do. I was reasoning my way right out of God's will. Isn't that just crazy, ya'll?
Anyway, we are now at the threshold and are going to have to make a decision on this too soon. We have wasted so much time debating that now there is no time left.
In my quiet time today I came across this scripture, and I know God brought me here:
It says in James 1: 5-8
If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; he is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does.
I had a conversation with God after reading this- he basically said: " Why do you not trust me?"
I said," This is my life we're talking about here. I don't want to make the wrong choice."
* Did you all hear what I just said to God? Could I possibly be serious? I mean-who am I? It's almost humorous, isn't it?
This is what he said," I made you. I know what is best for you. I know the plans I have for you. Trust me, give it all to me and I will answer you. I will give you peace in your heart and peace in your spirit, and you will no longer have to doubt."
Wow, is he not great?!! :)
Once again I have relied on myself, on my own understanding, and it has left me nothing but confused. I am finally giving this one to God.
My most gracious heavenly Father, thank you for once again showing me that you are the way the truth and the life. All answers are from you and for you. God take this from me and do what you will. I want clarity and peace and wisdom Lord. Please bring it to my heart. I trust you. In Jesus' name, Amen
Saturday, April 26, 2008
I believe in the power of prayer. I've seen so many of mine answered, that I KNOW He hears me. It makes me wonder why I don't spend more time praying.
I don't know if it's the voices singing this, or if it's the words- but I can listen to this song over and over again.
Thursday, April 24, 2008
Here it is! I am so proud of her...
Are you faithful to God? What do you "do" that makes you faithful to him?
I get up on Sunday morning and go to church. I really enjoy being there, and I get upset when Mom or Dad tell us we're not going. I like it so much because the teacher makes it fun for us and we learn a lot about God.
I also show my faithfulness to God by praying. I know it's something he wants me to do.
I feel like I should be doing more to show my faithfulness. I think I should tell about God no matter how embarrassing I think it might be. He does so much for me, and I need to respect him more for that by sharing him with others.
He says in Matthew 25:23:
Wouldn't that be spectacular?
Now get on your feet, go out, and tell about God. Show him your faithfulness!
Lord, help me be faithful to You, no matter what. In Jesus' name I pray, Amen
Her Dad sales beef, and when he informed her that they BBQ up some cow gut and other things for the kids to try, she happily declined! I do believe I would've done the same!! So, since she is home with me today we will be getting a lot of laundry done, and of course some house cleaning!
But, I also want her to try writing a devotion since this is something else I do. She will be giving this a try later on today, maybe this afternoon, so I do hope you will check back to see what she will post here!
Let's all come back and get inspired by an ALMOST 12 year old young lady!!
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
I'm not even sure I know when it happened or when it began. But this much I have learned so far, it is a slow and deliberate process by none other than the enemy...Satan. He knows my weaknesses and he waits and works ever so slowly on my thoughts until I feel defeated.
It's time for me to start really thinking about what's going on in my brain. What it is that I am thinking about ALL the time? My mind is always so busy with things (apparently most of which are not good) that I'm missing what the Lord is telling me. I'm not hearing that still small voice because there's just to much noise going on upstairs.
My mind needs to be renewed, and it's something I'm going to have to work very hard at. It has been taken captive, and the Lord needs to have access to it again to gain back that control. I know the process will take some time, but if God can crumble the wall around Jericho, then he can do the same for the negative thoughts that encircle my mind.
My most gracious Heavenly Father, I come to you today on my knees. I need your help to get my mind in right thinking. I pray that the eyes of my heart may be enlightened in order that I may know the hope to which you have called me ( Ephesians1:18). Through you Lord, I have a complete assurance of a certain victory. I know you are going to help me. I know I will succeed in this because you are by my side. Thank you, God. In the sweet name of Jesus, Amen!
Friday, April 18, 2008
For more inspiring stories and songs go see Amy at Signs, Miracles, and Wonders.
It was a .......ghetto blaster!! I believe the preferred choice now is an ipod. :) Oh, but my ghetto blaster ROCKED, and along with it came a particular tape that I oh, so enjoyed! (more on that later)
Mom and Dad, I'd like to say thanks again for those gifts - I thought I was the coolest chic in town!......
This all came flooding back today while on my way to taking my son to the orthodontist. A certain song from this tape came on the radio. I started singing loudly when my son said," Mom would you puh-leez turn the station." I said,"But this is a classic" to which he replied, "Yeah, I can tell."
Uh- hello, can you say reality check!!
Oh well- I am who I am, right?!!!
Anyway, here is a link to the song. And ladies, you might want to put some dancin' shoes on so you can work off some of those unwanted calories. It's the perfect time right....good music and exercise...the two really do go hand in hand! ENJOY!!
Oh, come on ya'll...you know your head was bobbin and you were twitchin your shoulders!!! ;)
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
God is really working on me. It seems to all be hitting at one time and sometimes I get overwhelmed, wondering what it's all for. I guess I am still searching for my purpose-what is it that God is changing me for?
Oh, how I wish I was a patient person-wish I didn't always have to have all the answers.
I am broken and in search of healing. Yes, I know where the healing comes from. It comes from my Creator. But, it is so hard to wait when your in pain.
I was at my daughter's soccer practice this evening. Across the field were 3 trees bending in the wind. Have you ever noticed that trees, having been blown in the same direction by the wind for a long amount of time, just naturally lean that way?
It's supposed to be that way with us and God. We should learn to naturally lean into Him after spending time in a relationship with our Father.
Oh, but my flesh- it wins out too often, and it's like spittin' in the wind, my friends.
I need to learn to lean into my Maker. Trust in the One who is above all others.
I want to say thank you to Kimberly who reminded me to lean in.
And also a thank you to Laurie who reminds me that Satan is ever present waiting to devour the weak in their weaknesses..... sometimes I forget that he is lurking.
Thank you so much to all of my friends who pray for me and remind me that I am never alone. I truly felt your prayers today.
This is the verse I am holding on to tonight and in the days to come:
Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is- his good, pleasing, and perfect will. Romans 12:2
He is like a tree planted by streams of living water,which yields its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither. Whatever he does prospers. Psalm1:3
But lately, I just don't feel refreshed. I feel dry and very thirsty. My leaves are brittle and beginning to fall. Nothing I do seems to be right and I wonder 'where has God gone.'
I feel I have done or am doing what God has asked of me. Why can't I hear him?
Why don't I feel his presence? Is there something else in my heart that I need to repent of?
Lord, please come back and refresh me. Show me if there isn't a right attitude in my heart. Help me to feel your presence in my life. I'm here every morning Lord to spend time with you yet I still walk away dull. Where are you? Please show me what you want me to do. For now Lord, I will just meditate on the fact that your grace is enough. In Jesus' name and all according to your will, Amen
Thursday, April 10, 2008
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What I was doing 10 years ago: (1998)- and please know that I didn't quite yet know the saving grace of Jesus at this point...so don't let anything shock you! :)
* Being a single mom
*Had just met my one and only husband
*working in a bar
*attending nursing school
*being very bitter
---Thank God that by his saving grace I am passed all of this!
5 things on my to-do list today:
*NOT laundry since I got all of it done on Tuesday-but tomorrow I will be busy with it again!
*cleaning bathrooms...'Oh, why must we be the ones'...can't you just hear the lament!
*thinking about the fact that I'm starting my new healthy lifestyle on Sunday, soooo....
*I'll be eating whatever I feel like :)
*Cooking up a great dinner since the kids don't have practices tonight
5 snacks I enjoy: being that healthy lifestyle change occurs in 3 days....
*and UUUMMMMM...did I mention- CHIPS!
5 things I would do if I were a billionaire:
*give all the $ necessary for my church to build their first church building- we currently meet in an 'unused' wing of the hospital
*pay off all our debt including cars and house and whatever else- along with those of our siblings, and parents!! What a great day that would be!
*Put money away for children's education
*also for the education of nieces and nephews
5 bad habits:
*temper--doing much better
*quick tongue- doing much better
*won't let anyone wear only socks on their feet when around the house...I have NO idea why-it just drives me crazy!! :)
*OCD...Ahhhh-to only let some of those pesky details go....
*not getting around to showering until late morning- on most days-but hey, I've only got so much time :)
5 places I've lived:
5 jobs I've had
*waitress-at a pizza joint in high school...loved it
*in charge of irrigation at golf course
*mowed greens at different golf course
*Stay at Home Mom
I am tagging anyone who hasn't done this yet, so- drop me a line if you participate so I can come over and learn more about you!! :)
And now...... I would like to take the opportunity to give Jenifer the Excellent Blog award. You always cheer me up and you are a true witness for Christ in everything you say. I am always encouraged by you. ENJOY!! :)
Wednesday, April 9, 2008
Tuesday, April 8, 2008
Click here for a free CD...hurry while supplies last!! All the freebies are gone BUT you can order them online for only $8.97 and that's an awesome price!!
After that, check this out http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TNk29-fjqXM. It's previews of some of the songs off the CD that hopefully...you just got for free!! I just loved listening to the stories behind the songs. He is fabulous!
Just a little tid bit of info...Matt is actually the one who wrote ' Your Grace is Enough' which was recorded by none other than.....Chris Tomlin!
Monday, April 7, 2008
Here is the issue-
I went out Friday night with a girlfriend from high school and a couple of girls she knows. This friend and I have remained great friends all these years and she invited me to a ladies night out.
We went to dinner, and here is where the conviction comes in. I had a couple of beers.
I know the Bible says-do not get drunk with wine. So I assume that a couple beers isn't that big of a deal. But, the conviction is there...am I being a good witness for Christ? Am I a hypocrite? Did I really do something wrong?
I have always felt that because I am of legal age to drink, then I am not breaking the law.
During my time with God this morning- this is the scripture that really got me to thinking about this: (It is of Paul speaking to believers everywhere)
But whatever was to my profit I now consider loss for the sake of Christ. What is more, I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them rubbish, that I may gain Christ and be found in him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which is by faith in Christ- the righteousness that comes from God and is by faith.--Philippians 3:7-9
It says- not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law but a righteousness that comes from God and is by faith.
Because I am of legal age I was obeying the law-but maybe not the law of righteousness that God calls me to.
The study portion of my Bible on these verses says this-we have to make sacrifices in order to fully enjoy the resurrection power of Christ. What are we willing to give up in order to know Christ? An overcrowded schedule in order to spend quiet time with him? Some of your plans or pleasures? Your friends approval?
I am still struggling with this a bit. I know there is conviction in my heart, but did I really do something wrong?
I have already gone to God for the answers I am seeking on this issue. I know that he is my guide.
I am curious if anyone else deals or has dealt with this issue in their heart.
Thursday, April 3, 2008
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Tuesday, April 1, 2008
I used to do my quiet time when my 2 year old son was napping in the afternoon but felt God urging me to do it in the morning. I ignored him for a long time, but thankfully after much prodding, I gave in. I don't believe he calls everyone to do this in the wee hours of the morning- He just knows I have little patience and somewhat of a bad temper- though it is MUCH better than it used to be.
You see, by the time I got around to it in the afternoon, I had already ruined my day and the day of the ones I love. I need that time in the morning to get my head and heart straight. I am so thankful God put me back on track with his will.
So far this week has been awesome. I realize it's only been 2 days but....2 days is 2 days, right? You've gotta start somewhere!
I have also been very convicted about my relationship with my husband. How there are so many more things I can do for him to help him with his day. After all, that's what I was created for-to be his helper.
When I think of what my husband does for me, I am blown away by it. This is what I told him the other day...and I meant it with all my heart. " I can not imagine getting up everyday at the crack of dawn and going to work knowing that it is my lot for almost the rest of my life. Thank you for what you do for your family....I don't think I could do it." Imagine HAVING to do that for your whole life- there's no option. How stressful that must be.
So, the last 2 days I have gotten up and had my quiet time. Then I have made my husband a awesome breakfast that would take him through till lunch. I got my daughter up and did the same for her. Then, it was time to get my boys up and do the same for them. All the while I had folded a load of laundry, started another, and got the dishes going in the dishwasher! This was all done by 7:15 am.
I don't say this boastfully. I say this because I am so overwhelmed with God's amazingness. ( Is that even a word?)...oh well, it's gonna be today! :)
He NEVER fails me. He proves his trustworthiness every time! He doesn't have to prove himself- he just chooses to, and because of that I am beginning to trust my Maker more and more everyday!
So, I will continue on this path because it is the one that God calls me to. I am joyful today and I give God the glory!!
As my friend told me......
Monday, March 31, 2008
If you have a few minutes, I would love your input on my blog in regards to the ten struggles that Christian women face. Thank you!
If you go to her link above and leave your comment, she will put your name in a drawing for a book.
She is asking what are the top 10 things that you struggle with as a Christian women?
Here is the comment I left:
Hi, I'm 32 and a SAHM to 3! I am sure there are more than 10 but here are the struggles that came to mind right now that I face as a Christian women.
1. figuring out who I am
2. quiet time with God
3. obeying God
4. understanding that my top ministry is to my husband
8. trusting God
9. self image
10. getting everything done cuz I waste too much time
I figure if I nail down #3 then all the others will fall into place!! :)
So let's all go here and help her out!! I'm ready to see that I am not alone with my struggles...so join in, won't you?
Sunday, March 30, 2008
Why, if God has sacrificed ALL, can't I get my lazy butt out of bed at 4:30 am to give him my attention? He died for me....is it really that much for him to ask of me?
My selfishness has once again separated me from my Father.
I woke up this morning feeling very alone, and while sitting in church today, this came to mind and I wrote it down on my program:
This is the song my heart is singing to the Lord today
Update: God has shown me this morning( Monday) that I can get up later than I think to spend some time with Him!!
Thursday, March 27, 2008
It's only a quarter.......
Several years ago, a preacher from out of state accepted a call to a church in Houston, Texas. Some weeks after he arrived, he had an occasion to ride the bus from his home to the downtown area.
When he sat down, he discovered that the driver had accidentally given him a quarter too much change. As he considered what to do, he thought to himself, 'You'd better give the quarter back. It would be wrong to keep it.' Then he thought, 'Oh, forget it, it's only a quarter. Who would worry about this little amount? Anyway, the bus company gets too much fare; they will never miss it. Accept it as 'a gift from God' and keep quiet'.
When his stop came, he paused momentarily at the door, then he handed the quarter to the driver and said, 'Here, you gave me too much change.' The driver, with a smile, replied, 'Aren't you the new preacher in town? I have been thinking a lot lately about going somewhere to worship. I just wanted to see what you would do if I gave you too much change... I'll see you at church on Sunday.'
When the preacher stepped off of the bus, he literally grabbed the nearest light pole, held on, and said, 'Oh God, I almost sold your Son for a quarter.'
Our lives are the only Bible some people will ever read. This is a really scary example of how much people watch us as Christians and will put us to the test! Always be on guard and remember that you carry the name of Christ on your shoulders when you call yourself 'Christian'.
Watch your thoughts; they become words.
Watch your words; they become actions.
Watch your actions; they become habits.
Watch your habits; they become character.
Watch your character; it becomes your destiny.!
WHAT WOULD YOU HAVE DONE.....?
Monday, March 24, 2008
About 5 years ago, during the beautiful Spring season, I had a miscarriage. I remember going to the doctor and he told me that he and his wife had also had a miscarriage awhile back and that giving the baby a name had helped them with the healing process.
A few days later, this was her name.....
When the perishable has been clothed with the imperishable, and the mortal with immortality, then the saying that is written will come true: " Death has been swallowed up in victory."
I have peace because I know I will see my baby someday in heaven and I will finally get to hold her hand and look into her beautiful face. For now she is holding the hand of Jesus Christ as he helps her cross the streets of gold. What better place is there than that? I know this with ALL assurance because Jesus Christ concurred the grave. He was raised on the third day and when I die I will be raised to be where He is also.
Thank you Lord, for the peace I have in my heart.
Friday, March 21, 2008
YES! YES! YES!
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
I have had this phobia of having to eat in a restaurant by myself for as long as I can remember. I'm sure it's because I don't want people to feel sorry for me. Isn't that crazy?
I will go to great lengths not to have to do this. In fact, while on my way out of town today, I went through the McDonald's drive-thru and then parked in their parking lot to eat. I was not in a hurry, I just didn't want to dine alone in public. Does anyone else feel this way?
As I was in line at the drive-thru I looked over, and through a wall of glass, I peered inside to see yet another elderly women eating alone. While saying a quick prayer for her, I noticed something! She had her hands folded and head bowed in prayer. I just sat and watched as this women prayed to God. She was not alone at all! She had her Father in heaven right beside her.
I spent the rest of my day giving thanks to the Lord!
Thank you for always being there! Thank you for saving my life! Thank you, Thank you, Thank you!!
You've just got to go here and listen to this!!
You are never alone if you have Jesus!
Monday, March 17, 2008
I believe that generational sin is a real thing. I question why I have to be the one to stop it? Why do I have to be the one who does all the hard work?
I am certain that my tongue has screwed my kids up in some way. And I just want it to stop. But, why do I have to change while everyone else in the house appears to stay the same?
This is what I heard when I questioned the Lord, "Someone has to be willing, right? You are the adult here."
Okay then God, here I am. I don't want to feel this way anymore. I want my family to be peaceful. I want their resting place to be relaxing, a place to de-stress from the outside world. Help me Lord through your word. Help me to realize that I don't have to get angry anymore. You have given us your scripture, which is God breathed, and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness (2 Timothy3:16). Help me to understand that there is no need to yell. Help me to implement your word into our everyday lives so that we may have some peace. Your word will give me all the wisdom and power that I need. In Jesus' name, Amen
Sunday, March 16, 2008
Friday, March 14, 2008
I was saved on April 24, 1999. I was at a Christian women's conference where Kathy Troccoli was a speaker and also a singer. This women touched my life. I wanted what she had.... a Jesus that would save me from my sin.
But it's okay, because I have Jesus! :)
Thursday, March 13, 2008
How I ended up where I did could have only been the work of God. There I was parked in front of a pre-teen girl's clothing store that I had told Dallas 3 years ago I would never go back to.(much to her dismay I might add!) True to my word we had not been back. I felt their clothes were totally inappropriate for the age they sell to.
So, why was I sitting here waiting for them to open? God had prompted me to go there.
Once inside, there was a Hannah Montana song and video playing on the TV that I thought Dallas needed to hear. If you have not read this post it would help you understand what I'm about to say. Dallas had a very bad night the day she gave that note to Ashley and she didn't get much sleep. She has been ridiculed at school for giving that note to the girl that is having so many troubles. They are making fun of her for befriending her and " even caring that Ashley is alive."
Yes, folks, that's right. These young children actually said that to Dallas. Kids are sooo cruel! Thank you Lord, that Dallas has a good core group of friends that she can turn to.
Anyway, the song that was playing is called Make Some Noise. It reiterated everything I had tried to tell Dallas the night before. She has to make a choice to stand up for God and care for all people....that is what God calls us to do. One thing that stuck out about the song was when she sang the words --no one can take your place in this world. How true it is. I thought, I'll buy her that CD- but it was twice as much there than it would have been anywhere else, so I meandered over to the sale rack. That's when God's purpose for me being there came to light.
Out of the blue the sales lady says, " Are you ready for Easter?"
" Yes," I replied. "Are you?"
She said, " No, I just can't find anything to give to my kids. I want to do something different than an Easter basket, you know? I want to do something that has meaning. My sister says that Easter is more important than Christmas but that people don't recognize that because everything is so commercialized these days. And ya know, I think she's right, don't you?"
I said, " Yes, I think she is right."
Okay ladies, at this point I know that God placed me here. People don't normally just walk up to you and start asking questions about Jesus and Easter..it was our only topic of conversation. I
wasn't wearing an I love Jesus T-shirt or anything. It was definetly a God thing!
So, as I'm thumbing through all the clothes I'm thinking....okay God, what is it I'm supposed to say...please give me the right words. My mind is searching for a cool gift idea for her to give her kids instead of an Easter basket. Nothing is coming to me. I continue to wander around as she talks about how they had visited this non-denominational church once and she liked the music they played. I told her about the band at our church and that I thought they were awesome, and then it came to me. Ding... Ding...Ding!! DUH!! Invite her and her family to go to church with you.
Now I'm thinking okay you gotta purchase something so you can get up there and write all your info down. I knew I was not going to spend $40 on a shirt my daughter would outgrow after she wore it 3 times (though I did notice that all of their clothes were very age appropriate now... Dallas will be thrilled!) so I decided to get the high dollar CD. I felt good about spending that money though!
I went to pay and invited her to church. I wrote down all the info., our phone number, the name of the church, and introduced myself. Her name is Robin. I don't know if she will call or not, it may have just been a test from God to see if I would obey.
It brought this verse to mind:
For you, O God, tested us; you refined us like silver
What I do know is that God was there with me...He was watching! I do hope she calls, but if that was not his plan then I will still be joyous, because I did what he asked me to do. There have been times I have not obeyed..read this and it has cost me dearly.
Thank you Lord for allowing me to serve you. Please continue to refine me like silver. I pray that you will find me fit enough to use me anytime and every time. I am listening, Lord. In Jesus' name and all according to your will, Amen.
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
One is at Faith Lifts, where you will find me every other Wednesday. The other is at Writer....Interrupted, where you will find me the 2nd Wednesday of every month.
Whenever it is posted on their website I will give you a link to it from my blog. I do hope you will join me on these days. Today they are both posting my first devotions and they are different. So I hope you will take a few extra minutes and stop by to read both.
I pray you will be blessed!
Click here to read at Faith Lifts and then click here to read at Writer....Interrupted!
Monday, March 10, 2008
What first captured my interest was a face she had drawn on the front. It was a circle with 2 dashes for eyes and a frowning mouth. There was a teardrop coming out of her eye. The inside read:
Dallas I'm sorry for shoving you into the lockers. I know how it feels I have been pushed a lot of times. I did not mean to push you like I said I have anger issues. I hope nobody was hurt especially you. So I hope that your okay. I hope your back feels better soon. Really soon. But anyway I'm sorry!
P.S. I will try to make my anger issues go away. Well I hope you feel better.
This was a letter that Dallas had gotten today from a bully at school that she has had a little bit of a problem with lately. Dallas stated that Ashley doesn't have many friends because she is so mean. I had tears in my eyes as I told Dallas we needed to pray for this girl.
Instead of being angry about what she had done to my daughter, God had shown me the heart of a girl in pain.
I told Dallas that there may be some issues for her at home that no one knows about, so we needed to pray for her. Dallas said, "I know what's going on...I asked her the other day when I saw her crying."
I have to say here that I am proud of my daughter for taking the time to ask Ashley what was wrong after this girl has been so mean to her.
I guess Ashley's parents have just recently divorced and she is being passed around to relatives that live close by. Right now she is living with her grandparents. While I don't know the whole story, I know enough to say that this little girl needs some prayer.
Dallas and I talked and decided that we would write down a scripture on a piece of paper for Dallas to give to her tomorrow.
Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.
1 Peter 5:7
Dallas is going to give it to her tomorrow and tell her that Jesus is always listening. She is going to hopefully get her phone number so we can invite her to go to church with us.
Please pray for this girl, Ashley. It appears that she is going through a lot right now and possibly has been for quite some time.
Thank you friends, in advance, for your prayers.
Sunday, March 9, 2008
Friday, March 7, 2008
Daylight Savings begins Sunday, March 9th at 2am.
Don’t forget to set your clocks forward before you go to bed Saturday night!
"Instead of passing out three different awards this morning, I am going to pass out one. One that is just on my heart this morning....the "Pleasing Aroma Award." I have no cute picture or anything you have to link to. (I looked around on photobucket, but nothing caught my fancy.) You don't need to pass this on. I'm not trying to create a new award to circulate the bloggy world. This is just from my heart to yours."
I wanted to say thank you Kimberly for passing such a wonderful award to me....one that came straight from your heart. You have no idea how much your sweet words mean to me.
I smoked for about 10 years. As of January 31st I haven't touched a cigarette in 3 years. I know that is not what you mean by the pleasing aroma award, but if someone tells me 'I smell good' it just reminds me of a bad habit I concurred.
I am so thankful that God has chosen to use me in this way and it is so nice to hear that someone thinks I permeate Jesus. How awesome! Thank you Lord!
Go to Kimberly's link above and find out what this award is all about and check out the links she has provided to all those that touch her heart. I am sure you will be blessed.
I so wish I could meet you dear friend- I would give you a great big hug and tell you thank you. I am blessed by you EVERYDAY!
Thursday, March 6, 2008
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
Upon our arrival home our kids came rushing us with gifts they had picked out for us. They didn't want to wait, we had to open them right then. Justin handed us his first. It was beautifully wrapped and inside was a candle. It was one of those that has 3 layers, a light color, then medium, and then the darker color at the bottom. We gave him a kiss and told him thank you.
It was time for Dallas to give us her gifts. As she passed them to me she said, " I have 2 so that each of you can open one." Justin, feeling sad now because he didn't get 2 for us, said " See how rude she is?" He looked so sad. I instantly said what God put on my heart, " Justin but your gift is special, it has 3 layers- one for me-one for daddy- and one for Jesus, who holds us together.
A cord of three strands is not quickly broken.
It was just what he needed to hear because his face lit up. He now knew his gift has special meaning. Thank you Jesus for just the right words at just the right time. You never fail me.
Dallas had gotten us a jar candle and a box of milk duds! Aren't kids just so cute?
I put the candles on the mantle and they gave us a wonderful aroma that evening. The 2 of those candles together smell awesome!
Tuesday, March 4, 2008