Friday, May 16, 2008

You saved me

I'm not sure why the Lord is leading me to share this today. It has been written for some time now- saved away for a better time. I have been scared to share it. Afraid of what friends might think if they knew the person I was or the things I used to do. But God has a plan and today is the day.

I was at a Christian women's conference in 1999. My mother-in-law, Cheryl, had invited me to go. She wasn't my mother-in-law at the time but I am now blessed to be able to call her that.

I sat at the conference all day listening to people's testimonies. I cried a lot listening to all their stories, which weren't so different than mine. At the end of the conference they had a time for you to come forward if you wanted to ask Jesus into your heart. I wasn't sure what had came over me, but there I was walking down the LONG isle to the front. I wanted to ask Jesus into my heart. I wanted forgiveness for all my sins. I wanted peace in my heart. I know now that it was the Holy Spirit that walked me down the isle because I am certain it was not me moving my legs. Thank you God! Oh, how I needed your help!

After the conference was over we headed back to Cheryl's house. I had planned on leaving from there right away to make the hour long drive to my house. I had plans with a couple of friends that night. We were going to be drinking and most likely, partaking in some sort of illegal drug. I was never an addict, but if God had not intervened when he did, I very well could have been.

But, what I hadn't planned on was asking Jesus into my heart earlier that day. I knew there was no way I could go home that night- so I asked Gary and Cheryl if I could stay at their house for the night. Of course, they said yes.

I didn't get much sleep that night. I was awake crying in the room. It was just me and God. I felt in my heart that I needed to confess every sin I could remember ever committing. I hungered for that forgiveness. I wanted peace in my heart.

The next morning I felt so good- though my eyes were almost swollen shut from all the tears. I ate breakfast and headed home. I went straight to my friends' house. The ones I was supposed to go partying with the night before. I sat on their front porch with them and told them that I had gotten saved last night. They looked at me like I was crazy. They said, " What does that mean?" I shared that I had asked Jesus into my heart as Lord and Savior of my life and that he had died on the cross as payment for all the things I had done wrong and that I was forgiven for all of it. They still thought I was crazy. They didn't understand what I was saying because they didn't have Jesus living in their hearts.

I went home and fell on the couch in despair. My friends thought I was crazy. I felt dejected and my joy for the Lord felt far away, as if it had left as quickly as it came. I remember sitting there on the couch with my arms folded and my head hung. I felt so alone.

Then, I tilted my head up and there on the wall was the shadow of a cross that was filtering in from a nearby window. I knew God had placed it there at that exact moment. My heart welled up with love for my God once again and my joy was brought back. In that very moment I knew that My God would never leave me. My God would never forsake me. He had seen what I had shared with my friends and wanted me to know that he was there, regardless of what they thought of me.

God can give you this same peace. All you have to do is accept his grace and love. Just believe in your heart that he died on the cross so that your sins would be remembered no more, and on the third day he rose from the grave and now sits at the right hand of the Father in heaven. He has risen to prepare a place for you and if he has risen to prepare a place for you then He will come back so that you may be where He is. If you feel Him tugging at your heart-- then don't waste another second. Just take that first step, believe in your heart and let the Lord do the rest.

Here is a song I found the other day. It speaks of a message very dear to my heart.
If you get nothing else from this-please get this...God can change people. I can testify to it. No matter the past- PEOPLE CAN CHANGE! Don't judge - just pray.

If there's someone out there ready to ask Jesus into their heart but you don't know how or what to do, email me at and I will do my best to help you. If there is some one who needs prayer, if there is someone who needs to talk- I am here and more willing than you know.


Go see Amy for more beautiful songs, or also here for more stories of signs, miracles, and wonders!


Jenifer said...

Thanks for sharing. A women's conference changed my life too. I think it's so important for us to be transparent. Others need to see that we aren't perfect just forgiven. Praise Him.

Love you girl!

DeAnna said...

Oh, Cheri. Praise God you listened. Thanks for sharing your story. I know someone will be touched by reading it. Knowing you and your sweet spirit I could envision you on that day as you described it. Keep striving for Him.

Blessings sweet friend!

Carol said...

What a powerful testimony! I'm not even sure what to say. You are such a beautiful person inside and out. I am so proud of what the Lord has done in your life. This song was mesmerizing. I loved it. Thank you for sharing that. It was wonderful!

Amy Wyatt said...

Oh Cheri... thanks so much for sharing this and being so transparent. I know everyone who reads this will be blessed.

Rebecca said...

Thanks for this open and honest post. You are an incredible woman. God is using you and it is so exciting to see your story unfolding. I have really enjoyed getting to know you though your blog.

Your story is a great testimony of God's love. Everyone has a story and sometimes I forget that.

I appreciate your willingness to listen to people. I am a pastor's wife in a small church in a small community. I love our church and where we live but sometimes being a pastor's wife can be so lonely. God has blessed me with great friends, but because of our location and size I don't always give myself the freedom to open up about my struggles. So I just might take you up on your email invite.

Christina said...

Amazing testimony. Seeing the cross on the wall must of been something, who says God doesn't speak to us?

Xandra said...

Now that is an incredible testimony to the changing power of the Holy Spirit! I'm glad you decided to post this...what an encouragement to believers and non-believers alike!


Stephanie (Ocean Mommy) said...

Praise the Lord! This was absolutely beautiful....

I loved reading your testimony, and the song was the perfect way to end it!!!

Glory be to God!


Van said...

Your story is a beautiful illustration of the life God has given each one of us. Glory to God in the highest. I am so glad your wrote it and I got to read it. Keep on telling the world that Jesus saved you.

Darlene said...

Fabulous testimony! I am so glad you shared with us today. Thanks for reminding me that HE is all that matters and to keep our eyes on HIM.!
Have a great weekend!

Deborah said...

A beautiful testimony Cheri! I was almost 27 when the Lord saved me...I too know that he can change anyone! Thank you for sharing your will make the difference in someone's life.

Mocha with Linda said...

What a wonderful testimony! It grieves me that we have to feel nervous about sharing with other believers what we were saved from! The ground is level at the foot of the cross, and we are all so undeserving. Praise God for His grace!

Mel's World said...

What an amazing testimony to God's grace and goodness...thank you SO much for sharing from your heart today!

Shari said...

That was a great story about how Jesus saved you. I'm so glad that He is the God of second chances. What a special, meaningful song too.

Earthmommy said...

This is one of the most beautiful stories of new salvation I have ever read! I think a lot of times we are afraid to share for the same reasons you mention, but I think it's vital that we do! Thank you for sharing!

Tanja said...

Wow! There just isn't much more powerful than a shared testimony of how Jesus has changed your life. I love the video you included. New artist for me. I got chills listening to those words. Thanks for the visit, too!

LAURIE said...

Cheri, I tried to post a comment earlier but I think my computer messed up. I wanted to say WOW! and THANK YOU JESUS! for embracing you at that very moment! We all are sinners and saved only by His grace. Keep on sharing your testimony, what God has done in your life is much like receiving a precious gift. If I would give you a beautiful gift and you never opened it up...well that would be of no use, the same is true when God saves us and gives us the GIFT OF LIFE, if we don't open up the gift that He has placed inside of us...what good is it? Never be afraid or ashamed to share what God has brought you thru and what He has brought you to! -
love, Laurie

kmom3 said...

I sit here with tears streaming down my face, Cheri! Your testimony is so beautiful! You have nothing to be ashamed of. We all do things we regret when we are living a life without Jesus. I sure did!
I love how He showed you that He is always with you. He is so tender!
And I love that song! I am so glad I came by this morning. I am leaving here filled with His hope. Thank you so much in obeying Him about sharing this!
You are a blessing!

Anonymous said...

this is wonderful! this will bless all who read it :o)

Peggy said...

Cheri, I praise God that you decided to write and share this testimony of how Jesus saved you.
Though I'm sure there was much more struggle and victories along the way, you capsulized the key ones for you at first. God is & will always be there, even when friends call you crazy or don't quite get it! Almost 10 years and look what you have to show for it!

I scrolled from the top to here looking for Psalm Friday, or Thankful Thursday, reading along the way and I can clearly see God's hand upon you and I thank Him for your courage to stand and share! Looks like Psalm 40:2 really does have great meaning for you!!! I truly love your song choice but love the power in your aMazing choice to SHARE Him & what
He's done for YOU! Sorry I missed this on Saturday! Be blessed and press on...In Him, Peggy