You know, God is really showing me that my thoughts are negative most of the time. It just comes naturally for me- I don't mean that as a joke either....unfortunately. I have become so used to thinking in this way that it is second nature for me.
I'm not even sure I know when it happened or when it began. But this much I have learned so far, it is a slow and deliberate process by none other than the enemy...Satan. He knows my weaknesses and he waits and works ever so slowly on my thoughts until I feel defeated.
It's time for me to start really thinking about what's going on in my brain. What it is that I am thinking about ALL the time? My mind is always so busy with things (apparently most of which are not good) that I'm missing what the Lord is telling me. I'm not hearing that still small voice because there's just to much noise going on upstairs.
My mind needs to be renewed, and it's something I'm going to have to work very hard at. It has been taken captive, and the Lord needs to have access to it again to gain back that control. I know the process will take some time, but if God can crumble the wall around Jericho, then he can do the same for the negative thoughts that encircle my mind.
My most gracious Heavenly Father, I come to you today on my knees. I need your help to get my mind in right thinking. I pray that the eyes of my heart may be enlightened in order that I may know the hope to which you have called me ( Ephesians1:18). Through you Lord, I have a complete assurance of a certain victory. I know you are going to help me. I know I will succeed in this because you are by my side. Thank you, God. In the sweet name of Jesus, Amen!