Monday, April 28, 2008

Decisions...decisions...

For about a month and a half now, my hubby and I have been muling over a decision we have to make. A decision that will affect the lives of our family. ( no not divorce...we like each other verymuchthankyou!! :) )

It's a decision that I have tried "reasoning" over for much too long. I have reasons to do it-very valid ones I might add. Then, I also have very valid reasons not to do it.

I have reasoned myself into total confusion over the situation. My mind has been so on the go over this that I have rarely asked God what it is he'd have us do. I was reasoning my way right out of God's will. Isn't that just crazy, ya'll?

Anyway, we are now at the threshold and are going to have to make a decision on this too soon. We have wasted so much time debating that now there is no time left.

In my quiet time today I came across this scripture, and I know God brought me here:

It says in James 1: 5-8

If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; he is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does.

I had a conversation with God after reading this- he basically said: " Why do you not trust me?"

I said," This is my life we're talking about here. I don't want to make the wrong choice."

* Did you all hear what I just said to God? Could I possibly be serious? I mean-who am I? It's almost humorous, isn't it?

This is what he said," I made you. I know what is best for you. I know the plans I have for you. Trust me, give it all to me and I will answer you. I will give you peace in your heart and peace in your spirit, and you will no longer have to doubt."

Wow, is he not great?!! :)

Once again I have relied on myself, on my own understanding, and it has left me nothing but confused. I am finally giving this one to God.

My most gracious heavenly Father, thank you for once again showing me that you are the way the truth and the life. All answers are from you and for you. God take this from me and do what you will. I want clarity and peace and wisdom Lord. Please bring it to my heart. I trust you. In Jesus' name, Amen

11 comments:

Deborah said...

Wow! I could have written this one myself! Isn't it amazing how we so often try to do things in our own way and in our own strength, and somehow forget that the God who created us actually knows what's best for us??
Proverbs 3:5&6 comes to mind too.

LAURIE said...

Cheri, taking that step of faith is sometimes the hardest. But trusting God who holds it all in His hands is what I want to get to. That song comes to mind, "He's got the whole world in His hands" If He holds the whole world, how impossible is what I am searching for?

"What is impossible with man is possible with God"

I love your heart, and He will lead and guide you as you seek Him.
-love, Laurie

Christy said...

Boy, have I ever had to stop myself, in mid sentence, while talking to God. I struggle with patience, and find myself wanting to answer my own questions before taking the time to listen to Him. (I like how an above poster referenced the song "He's got the whole world in His hand." I think I'm going look that one up to add to my playlist.) I really enjoyed this blog. The verses and prayer were great. Thank you!

Sonja said...

(in my best "reflective" tone)....Hmmmmm. Good stuff!

kmom3 said...

He is so very good, isn't He? And I am so thankful He doesn't keep score and say, "Oh, I am sorry...you should have turned this over to me sooner." He is so gracious and merciful.
May He speak clearly to you and your husband, and may He give you peace as you wait on His answer.
You are a blessing! You always keep it real, and that is REALLY an encouragement!
:)

Dotwigg said...

Cheri,

Thanks for sharing your heart. It is funny how God brings us to situations to highlight things for us. I am so excited for you, journal these times before and right after your decision so you do not soon forget the journey God is taking you on. I can't wait to see what you "find" next, it is like a treasure hunt!! Jerm. 29:11Don't forget the little things :)

Stephanie (Ocean Mommy) said...

Yep...I've been there a few times myself!!! I love how God spoke to your heart about this!

I'm praying for you and can't wait to hear how God blesses your obedience...

steph.

Amy Wyatt said...

Aren't you glad He is still willing to take stuff from us when we decide we are ready to give it to Him :) I'm glad you are feeling some peace. I have been traveling so I haven't had time to comment lately, but I'm still here praying for you and reading your post. Hope everything is well with your fam.

Carol said...

This rings so true with me as well. It's so hard to let go of the reins sometimes and let Him have complete control. I'm with you. For some reason it's scary even though it shouldn't be. He is going to know what is best. This is something I struggle with all the time!

Melanie said...

Amen! This is so very true. And I totally understand where you are coming from as I have a tendency to do the exact same thing. It is actually one thing I have been working very hard on over the last year... turning it over to God FIRST instead of waiting until I'm at my wit's end with stress and worry.

God Bless You! I know He will give you right answer.

DeAnna said...

I'm walking with you on this one, girlfriend. Hang it there!!! Don't you know He is saying over and over again, "hello, I've go this one. Just trust me." Keep seeking!