Most days don't go the way I intend them to. Someone inevitably erks me in some way or another. I get so tired of being an angry person. I just want all the anger to go away.
I believe that generational sin is a real thing. I question why I have to be the one to stop it? Why do I have to be the one who does all the hard work?
I am certain that my tongue has screwed my kids up in some way. And I just want it to stop. But, why do I have to change while everyone else in the house appears to stay the same?
This is what I heard when I questioned the Lord, "Someone has to be willing, right? You are the adult here."
Okay then God, here I am. I don't want to feel this way anymore. I want my family to be peaceful. I want their resting place to be relaxing, a place to de-stress from the outside world. Help me Lord through your word. Help me to realize that I don't have to get angry anymore. You have given us your scripture, which is God breathed, and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness (2 Timothy3:16). Help me to understand that there is no need to yell. Help me to implement your word into our everyday lives so that we may have some peace. Your word will give me all the wisdom and power that I need. In Jesus' name, Amen